HAPPY ALONE.....

I AM HAPPY WHEN I'M NOT WITH MY MOM. IT DOESNT MEAN THAT I DONT LOVE HER. IT JUST I DONT LIKE PEOPLE TOLD WHAT TO DO. YESS I AM CLUELESS IN SO MANY WAYS . I AM FAT, EVERY TIME WHEN I'M AT HOME , WHEN MARRIED TOPICS CAME ALONG SHE WILL BLAME ME BECOZ OF MY FATNESS THAT MAKES NO ONE WILL WANT TO MARRY ME. I WAS LIKE " YEAH I AM FAT, SO WHAT". SHE ALWAYS SAID I SHOULD BE ASHAMED FOR BEING FAT. I LOVE MY MOM BUT SOMETIMES SHE'S CAN BE JUST AS BAD AS PEOPLE OUT THERE , CONDEMN ME IN WHAT EVER I DO, SAY OR THINK. MAKES ME FEEL SO SMALL, NO SELF ESTEEM. WORRIED ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE THINK ABOUT ME, MAKES ME SCARED TO TAKE ONE STEP AHEAD.... BUT SHES MY MOM AND I LOVE HER..... I WISH SHE CAN SEE THINGS DIFFERENTLY, MOST PEOPLE ARE NOT THE SAME. EVERYBODY IS UNIQUE.. EACH ONE HAVE THEIR ON WAY TO DO OR SAY THINGS....